Realize

Fact: Most parents suck at dealing with their children.

Yes, there are those few people that you know that have awesome parents. Though others tend to, lets say, crush their kids dreams. That's putting that nicely. It may be easy for parents to shove shit in their kid’s faces, because that what kids do in the first place. They push away and make parents feel like they mean nothing, but honestly deep, deep down inside - at least for me - I really do what my parents to be proud of me and accept who I am and who I want to be. 

See something really important to me is moving out when I'm 18. I'm a dreamer (as I have stated), and honestly this is how I would want my life to be as of turning 19:

First off I'd be living alone for a year by then. That may sound sad, but I want it at least for a few years. Also I wouldn't be completely alone. I'd have a dog if I had the money, even if it meant me eating ramen for every meal, and only eating one meal a day. That's love. Just in case you were wondering. I would have as many bookshelves as I possibly could on my walls in my tiny little run-down home. Except one little corner that would be decked out with all comfy fluff possible. I'd have a job. I'd be in school in good ol rainy Seattle, and yes it wouldn't be perfect, I'd have the stress, the depression, the thoughts that can never cease. Though for once in me life things would be my way. My rules. No one telling me who to be. Give me a one-room place where my food comes from a microwave on a floor and a bass station across the street. Give me spiders in my walls, and mice chewing holes in the moldy walls.  I don't care. Just along with it please grant my one wish. My life to be my own. I'll be in the armpit of the city sure, why not? It only makes me be able to climb higher, because guess what, no matter what people say, I will prove them wrong, I can be anything I want to be, and I will prevail, and all the people in this world who doubt me will realize that they put their money on the wrong horse. 

Sure you still got something out of it because you stuck with the person that was successful, and happy. Regular lifestyle. 

But me? I'm one of those that can't stand the regular lifestyle. My mind dreams too big for that. Yes, that can't hurt me, but it can also make me stronger then the other guy whose merely trying to get something because it could be useful, or provide for them. 

I want to start and end every year I live in different places. Why? because I'm insane. I want to see the world and get that feeling that you get when you look on a situation that you're in and know that you're in the right place because you feel like you're on top of the world. That you would take a bullet for everyone around you and would not hesitate to say that they all would for you. It's a point where you really feel that true happiness, and understand that this is where you want to be, and this is what you want to strive for, because no matter how much the scenery changes, you will always have your memories and your feelings. So screw the status quo. Go through life making memories you want to remember. Surround yourself with the things that always make you happy, because in the end those are the things you remember the most. Do what you want in the moment and forget about the past if you made the wrong choice. Try your best and move on, because life doesn't give you the choice of going back. Deal with it. Act on what you know, and strive to know more. Otherwise your life is being wasted. 

Go sow that on a pillow so you can look at it everyday and wish, or grab a pen and write it as fast as you can on your arm and live it.