I'm going to rant for an unknown amount of time, and this is the only place I can do it. Because guess what. Here I can say whatever the hell I want and no one can talk back, no one can tell me I'm wrong and no one can tell me how to live or what I should do.
Guess what. I've made up my mind on a few simple things. One is that I don't want any religion in my life. None. Zip. Zero. Usually I can be okay with it around me since I live in mormonville, but it's not easy, and sometimes I can get extremely pissed off and sad about it.
So you can pardon these next words if you wish. I'm just in need for writing about it right now due to the fact that I don't know where else I can go.
So, first of all I have lived in mormonville my whole life besides my first year being in California. I have always been going to the church and rarely miss days. When I was younger I didn't care, it was merely a part of my oblivious life. Though I got older. Around the time I turned twelve I started to wonder what the point of religion was and grew tired of the constant strange way of life. Progressing to now where I am sixteen, and so done with it all.
My family of course does not understand (usual teenager quote) at all in the fact that I don't want to be part of the church.
Today my mom found out that I missed one day of seminary and took me home from school and grounded me. Though she was at work so I got stuck with my dad.
Now the amount of stupidity in the lecture on the way home was more then my brain can even comprehend. Just complete through and through stupidity.
This is the part where I quote a couple things he said, and rant about them. (I'm a teenage girl. Deal with it)
Let's start out with this quote:
"It doesn't matter what you think. You either choose to believe or you don't."
What in the name of all Hell are you talking about??
In the first place it is not that simple. I cannot just mindlessly choose something that will influence every aspect of my life. Congratulations is you're that stupid, but I'm not so no thank you. Not to mention the amount of doubt I have in my mind about anything to do with religion or any type of bigger meaning shit. I like to live by what I know, and that is that I'm here and I want to be happy. I really don't give a damn about anything else. At all. I am 100% incapable of just choosing to believe in anything.
"And you have to face the consequences of you're decision. Like if you choose to be part of the church you will be happy and have an easy life. While if you choose not to you won't be happy, and will have a lot of problems."
Excuse my language but hey, FUCK YOU!
It's great that you found "happiness" in your little way of life, but stop shoving it in my face. Because guess what, I'm not stupid enough to find happiness in this life of yours. Your life consists of not going to work, watching t.v. on your fat ass, eating constantly on your diet that isn't working, having a shitty relationship with your wife, and of course we can never forget your temper. (Thanks for the genetics.) That makes you happy? Well whoop de doo. Throw yourself a party while you continue to take naps at 3:00 in the afternoon when you just woke up an hour before hand.
Your religion does not define who is happy and who is not. In fact I genuinely wouldn't be surprised if everyone I knew in your religion ended up in an insane asylum. You mean to tell me that the very small percent of the people in your religion are the only happy people on this planet? And if I don't "choose" it I will never be happy?
There is definitely something wrong with you.
Anyone can be happy, with or without your religion. Because your religion doesn't matter. It's an excuse people use to be a "good person" and honestly you're not a good person.
I want to be a genuinely good person without the stupid excuses.
I know what makes me happy and I follow it.
I am only happy when I'm not around your religion.
I have my own life so you should really stop trying to control it and move on.
I don't care how much sense this post makes because I finally got to voice myself.
Screw you.
Screw your religion.
Screw life.
Oh and one more thing.
You make me sad enough to kill myself.
Congratulations.
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