I've Been

It's been too long.

Though I've decided it's okay when the day comes that I leave this petite little home of mine and slowly move on from these words.

Because that means something. It means I have taken the leap from writing down what I want to actually getting it.

I will never forget all the words I have written, but I will be happy to move on when the time comes.

Where have I been?

Well...

I've been in his breaths that come and go so smoothly. They take me in and make me feel so safe and warm.

We sway through the waves and the lightning knowing that as long as we hold our gaze and see the stars sparkle in each others eyes we don't need necessities of life. (Air? Psh, not a need at all.)

I've been in her smiles. The ones I never thought I'd see again. The laughs. The memories. It's something so pure. I'm the luckiest person on earth to have found something so blissful.

I've been in tears. Hovering above all the people I care for that feel so cold when I need a fire to thaw my heart.

I've been in my music. The sweet symphonies that make me believe a god could exist, because nothing of this world could create such sunrise.

I've been lost.

I've been found.

I've been up.

I've been down.

Though mostly I've been in a haze. Wondering too much.

Don't we all?

That is why we're all here on these blogs that no one reads.

We write our souls with a pen hooked to our veins for ink. Leaking everything we can onto the page so we can see a little clearer.

We walk down the halls thinking, if only they knew.

We are the shadows trying to escape from the humans we are attached to because we want a life of our own. We don't want this body that's full of insecurity and has thoughts too loud but a voice to small.

We want to fly.