I Don't Know

I'd like to quote a person I hold dear in my heart.

"I don't know."

I don't know if I should be giving in to the world around me, and forget who I am.

I don't know if I should be preparing for a break up because long distance doesn't work.

I don't know if I should be breaking up currently because I'm too much for another human being.

I don't know if I should isolate myself because I can't identify truth from lying.

I don't know if I should being talking to someone about what goes on in my head.

I don't know if I should be getting papers for emancipation.

I don't know if I should let myself sleep.

I don't know if I should just kill myself off so I don't have to deal with anything.

I don't know if I should being doing what I love or doing what makes sense.

I don't know if I should be myself around others because I can't determine if I'll bring them down or lift them up.

I don't know if I can get my life in order.

I don't know if I should try to look on the bright side because I'm scared I'll get to the point where I can't find one.

I don't know if I should try paying for college through scholarships or just face the facts.

I don't know if I actually want to go through life or not.

I don't know if I should start taking meds.

I don't know if I should try being beautiful or accept its impossible.

I don't know if I can believe in anything in this world.

I DON'T KNOW.

And I'm done trying to know.