Depression is...

Depression is just...how do I put this...well...worse then your newborn child getting killed in front of you and your husband. Followed with any fear you have coming true all simultaneously.

If your only fear is your child getting killed in front of you and your husband.

You're lucky.

(I'm trying to be non violent or gruesome. Sorry if that was too much.)

Depression affects all aspects of your life.

Sleep.

Social life.

Self Esteem.

Grades.

Your career.

It can really affect anything if you let it, but those are just a few I thought of.

It can push you to the point where you take your own life.

The way the world can twist life is truly horrid.

With depression you could have one of the best days of your life, and yet still you find yourself lying in your bed at night and you can't help but cry yourself to sleep while your mind digs deep inside you shoving things into your thoughts that you can't control. It makes everything seem so hopeless and wrong. Makes you feel like all this is just too much. Honestly, sometimes it is. Sometimes you can't help but roll yourself up into a little ball on the floor in a room with no windows and no lights.

Though there is a door. In the darkness you can't see it, but it's there. On the other side is a make shift paradise. It's far from perfect, but it's your happy place. The place where the stars shine bright. The moon battles the night shining everywhere it can see and touch. Yes, it makes shadows, but it makes them beautiful. It makes everything beautiful. A place where your fear can be right in front of your face, but you don't care, because you're in the one place you feel safe, and nothing can even begin to take you down.

Uncurl your soul, and search for the door where the air is fresh and crisp. You've been through enough. You deserve it.

If it takes a while to find the door, don't give up. It's there. You may have passed it over and over not realizes that, that is what you were feeling for, but you'll find it, and you'll finally achieve your hole in the wall paradise.