And we're back

 Funny how I find this blog again right when i'm finally feeling myself again. 

3 years. For three years I've felt everything and nothing. 

But I gotta be honest it's been longer than that. 

7 years. 

7 fucking years since i've written. 

7 years since i've felt something strong enough to write about it. 

Got caught up in a relationship and didn't let it die. 

Until it killed me. 

Until it made new life. 

And here we are. With everything I need and everything I need to work through on my shoulders. At least they're lighter than they have been in a long time. 

I'm back. 

I'm here to write.

But most importantly I'm here to find my heart again. 

Here to find the fire I once had inside me. 

The independent bitch who didn't give a fuck. The girl who laughed when people called her stupid, because she knew the truth. 

It's harder finding your way when the only person you have to talk to is your brain. 

My brain hates me. 

That one thing I'm now sure of. 

It feels good. 

It feels good to be back.