I'm watching a human grow right before my eyes.
Beginning to end.
It's beautiful.
I remember when I used to not capitalize my i's because someone else was doing it and I thought it was edgy and cool. Then I stopped cuz it wasn't my idea and I felt fake.
Such a small thing.
I remember the way he looked at me.
Why cant I forget.
Feels like another life.
I need to forget.
I'm engaged. To a man I love. Really love. Every day I can't believe it. Can't accept the fact that somebody wants to be with me for the rest of their life...
And why does nobody else?
Is it my fault?
I don't think I know how to be close to people.
It's scary.
Leaves me thinking about the way people looked at me.
Wondering if and why that look went away.
